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Dear Paul? : Again in confidence
  
     Your father has been struggling within so that unable to concentrate on reading or writing?, this time with feeling that must offer you use of his share of family possessions in case needed to save you from too heavyloss of what he calls your "load."  I asked him why he so complacently let the situation work up to? or down to? its present danger=zone? without more carefully and specifically advising & influencing you and more honestly developing in your consciousness how almost sacred his life savings have been to us two? and how impossible to replace them by him.
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He said he had begged you to be careful? and had been worried and fearful all along and firmly prophesied the disaster during two years, but couldn't get you to see his attitude of mind or get you to act on it, etc.? and couldn't be sure that you wouldn't manipulate matters to keep on safe side? perhaps more wisely than he could comprehend,? you seemed so sure that you would.  Well? whatever you two conclude is the saving stroke to avert disaster for you? (if you are to be really in grave danger of a serious loss-) probably will have to be somehow readjusted in our combined attitude about it? but? so far? it seems to me a sad and sorry prospect to see such hard=earned=hard=accumulated amounts being waged against such luck=and=chance hazarding? and? (your father's letter notwithstanding)?  never would he be able to so philosophically resign himself to finding himself? and yourself? (say ourselves) seriously reduced to less definite circumstances.  To point out that the fraction registered in my name represents any consoling surety is too much like xxx hoping that there's being no pennywise and poundfoolish accounting? for? after all?  what would that be to live on and go on? as dreamed of for old age?  and as grown used to?; especially as his health=condition carries along with it a depression anyhow? even if didn't worry over this money=matter? and as his really exceedingly delicate condition seems to me to necessitate going from climate to climate?   and to keep him from settling somewhere to brooding.  
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this certainly is a rotten kind of sympathy to be sending you? who may need even more consideration and consolation than he does? before the last call?; and I shall feel as sorry for you as anyone? and will hope to be able to help some? somehow? if it shall become necessary and suitable. I hope that my simple, humble, various tendencies and personal efforts during our good visits in Greeley may have left at least an impression that I am not unenergetic? and that at any show=down between us all I would be eager and undaunted as possible about making a go of it=together with you=all. But? I really dread a depleting of D's reserves, and hope that the wheel of fortune will swing back past the dangerline and that you'll be able to greatly juggle your holdings and handlings into more tangible and less insecure positions soon.  Perhaps my feelings are more an echo of C-D's than can be sure of? for if he didn't worry? and honestly didn't care or want it otherwise? maybe I would? as I always have? simply follow suit.  But we are too far past being young? or able to ever recover? and we truly both have worked very hard? and managed more savingly in ways that never could be understood by any others? and it seems tragic to have it so wobbly after all.  I hope you'll forgive me for thinking that you should know? and that I should be so frank? and confidential? but your father has arrived at a relaxed time of ill health and disillusionment and waning strength that makes him follow the line of least exertion more than ever before? and no longer goes to the trouble? or exercises the repression? of former days so? I see some of your? some of his letters? and I address the envelopes for about all letters? to save that extra bit of effort? so am thus today putting this in with his? Tho' am sure he wouldn't want me to? of course. He has been quite ill for several days & nights sorry to say? and I have spent two sleepless nights over that, mixed with my anxiety over his worrying so secretly & steadily over your financial responsibilities? which attach themselves to my heartstrings along with his? even tho' I shouldn't let it be so.
Please believe that I have no intention to really interfere=if situation needs acting on your father's letter? that is your right? with his consent? I admit.?